Self confidence ,
is something so IMPORTANT but sadly , I'm afraid that I don't really have it.. I might only seem like I do. I feel like I'm just not good enough. I've been surrounded by negativity at one point in my life which now leaves a scar. As I mature , I still can't seem to grow out of it. I get so self conscious. I've been compared , criticized , made fun of , turned down and blah blah blah... I know many of you have the same issue as I do or maybe even worst. So do feel free if you ought to share it with me , I would be very delighted :)
Although you've made me feel good about myself but I'm sorry honey. You've said and did stuffs that made me felt like I'm not good enough and you'd deserve better. Well , partly because I'm VERY sensitive , jealous and etc.
My problem is I don't know how to be satisfied with the way I am. I always spend my time in front of the mirror; feeling like I'm a puzzle that hadn't been well put together. I wished I could be more picture perfect.
I'm not asking to be 100% perfected but something satisfying enough that people will actually remember me (in a good way). I've always felt that like if I was being compared with 'someone' , that 'someone' would've won the comparison.
I feel like there's something missing inside of me that is holding me back all the time. I need to find the light to make me shine but I'm lost in the dark. I find it hard to trust words at times for I feel words are just literally nothing else but plain words. People can say anything as they like just to please you.
Baby , you just say the nicest things to me. In your sentences , its like I'm 'queen of the world'. Thank you very much for I really appreciate it babe.
However..
Their just words honey. I'm not saying that I don't believe you but I was hoping for proves that comes with your sweet words.
Maybe you did gave me proves but maybe I was too blind to see it. =(
But then again , harsh words of yours DEFINITELY had brought me down several times. Please think about it baby..
Please send angels from above to guide me for I feel like some very lost tourist in a foreign country. I honestly really don't like the fact that my self confidence level is like really low. I really need some confidence booster ;)
is something so IMPORTANT but sadly , I'm afraid that I don't really have it.. I might only seem like I do. I feel like I'm just not good enough. I've been surrounded by negativity at one point in my life which now leaves a scar. As I mature , I still can't seem to grow out of it. I get so self conscious. I've been compared , criticized , made fun of , turned down and blah blah blah... I know many of you have the same issue as I do or maybe even worst. So do feel free if you ought to share it with me , I would be very delighted :)
Although you've made me feel good about myself but I'm sorry honey. You've said and did stuffs that made me felt like I'm not good enough and you'd deserve better. Well , partly because I'm VERY sensitive , jealous and etc.
My problem is I don't know how to be satisfied with the way I am. I always spend my time in front of the mirror; feeling like I'm a puzzle that hadn't been well put together. I wished I could be more picture perfect.
I'm not asking to be 100% perfected but something satisfying enough that people will actually remember me (in a good way). I've always felt that like if I was being compared with 'someone' , that 'someone' would've won the comparison.
I feel like there's something missing inside of me that is holding me back all the time. I need to find the light to make me shine but I'm lost in the dark. I find it hard to trust words at times for I feel words are just literally nothing else but plain words. People can say anything as they like just to please you.
Baby , you just say the nicest things to me. In your sentences , its like I'm 'queen of the world'. Thank you very much for I really appreciate it babe.
However..
Their just words honey. I'm not saying that I don't believe you but I was hoping for proves that comes with your sweet words.
Maybe you did gave me proves but maybe I was too blind to see it. =(
But then again , harsh words of yours DEFINITELY had brought me down several times. Please think about it baby..
Please send angels from above to guide me for I feel like some very lost tourist in a foreign country. I honestly really don't like the fact that my self confidence level is like really low. I really need some confidence booster ;)
Mm, I feel so tired.. I'd better stop here or else I might just get carried away in my maze mind.
So off I go now , my beloved B.E.D is calling ;D
So off I go now , my beloved B.E.D is calling ;D
LOTS OF LOVE ,
Ashley <3
XoXoXo
Ashley <3
XoXoXo
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